I am sooo tired!! i didnt sleep yeaterday i was thinking of what my life would be like after marrage, i was thinking of my working life, u know we are in an arab world, and the culture is diffrent, women in the medical feild work from 8 to 5 and dont have a social life, i cant do that!! why did i get married then?
so i was thinking about that, then i took a detor and started to think about the rest of the things i need to buy and if i should get the colored eyes lens or the sprkling one?
another detor got me thinking of the hair dreser and if she is really good?
then it got me, i didnt buy the gest book,lol, can i have a wedding without it? kindda bored and dont want to go and buy it!
then i thought, is gold and white a nice combo? they are the colors that mu hubby chosse for the hall, and i should get the same colors for the gest book..
hmmmm...
how long should i wait until i can start looking 4 a job? 2 months? 1 month? more?
see i have insomnia and i cant sleep lol, i hate it when i get this condition
thnking is bad
stop thinking
go to sleep women~~
ok
ok
i think i'm goning crazy looool
OMG!! 10 days left
and i'm traviling to Jeddah this wed!! I cant beleive this, it was like yesterday when i first saw my hubby and was dying of laughter,lol, now its just 10 days and i'm married! 10!! i cant get the info in my head, i've been waiting 4 this day a WHOLE YEAR and now its hear!
i dont know what i feel right now, its really weard? but i know i'm happy for the most of it! so anxious and feeling the excitiment rushing in to my vains, wow... its been a great year of waiting, and i got so much memories that i really loved!
HAPPY!!
Ya rb tmm le 3la 5air!
Ameen
Ahhhh~~~
SAY YES!!!!~~~
now that i finished watching it i REALLY want to get MARRIED!!!
OMG!!
its a great drama, funny anr romantic, really touches the heart and sole!! oooo my heart was beating all the way to the end and ur on the edge of ur seat in excitment, u cant expect what will happen, alots of twists and personaly my heart broke twice!!! GOD its GOOD!!!
if u havent seen it yet
download NOW!!!
its worth it
i love my hubby!
Allah y5leeh lya ya rb!
for makeup
this one, really nice, not that much of the fuss and still simple with elegance
the hair from the front one of these:
and the back like this:
with a flower from the side and the vail hanging from below, the flower the same as the picture but without the net:
the nails are the glittery type
this one i finialy chose:
thats all THE bouqete i will pick from the flower place
what u think?!
some of this is really true
soooo cute pictures
and i feel that it actually has some truth in it!
from my email!
I was talking 2 my friend and she is a pharmacist still an intern, she told me about the crazy ppl that she works with and how they all treat them so badly, that made me think of all the bad ppl I've met in my life such crazy ppl that I would never understand!
Let's start from the most recent:
When I was an intern 3 months ago the supervisor I had was THE WORST OF ALL TIME!! It's not just me, all of the ppl in the unit HATE HER also other units!! She is a monster the living satin on earth!! I am not exaggerating she is the worst!!
The first day she told me what 2 WAER and what NOT 2 WAER, its non of ur damn business what I wear and don’t wear u ****, ok no problem take it easy let her talk as much as she want, let her think she's important and what she says is really interesting, then she asks my questions and when I answer correctly she replays (WHO TOLD U THE ANSWER? SOMEONE TOLD U!! U CANT KNOW IT!!) EXCUSE ME!! I am not that stupid; sorry I have some information in this head of mine!! Plz forgive my SMARTNESS!
Then she gives me such stupid assignments to do and complains that I never do them!! What a cry baby! One day after almost 2 weeks with this ***** she sits and "thinks" she is having this really honest conversation with me, she is like
"why don’t u do the assignments? Why don’t u like this unit? U don’t know everything, ur still a student and u still have 2 read and gain information, u never read, u never do what I tell u , even when the supervisor asked about u I told him ur good 4 ur own good, I didn’t want him to know the truth that ur NOT GOOD AT ALL!!"
WTF!!!
I couldn't take it any longer and started to get watery eyes so she says
"Nothing is worth crying! I didn’t say anything wrong! Tell me what's wrong! Isn’t it better 2 talk 2 me a WOMEN and tell me what's wrong then talking to the supervisor the MALE! U really want 2 cry in front of him!!!"
So I CRYED MY EYES OUT!! Even though I hate crying in front of ppl, I couldn't help it! She was eating my head off and I can't respond, coz if I do I will curse and really use bad words and I don’t like to do that with OLDER PPL! So I shut up and she says
"I have a meeting now when u calm down call me"
U think I'm going to calm down 4 real? So I leave the unit and go somewhere else to breath and visit my friend in the other unit, she sees how devastated I am so she advices me to leave and come tomorrow in a better mood 2 work. So I call stupid women and tell her I want 2 leave so she says "ok, no problem but the supervisor want to meet u in the meeting at 3 o'clock" what meeting? So the wonderful Mrs. Supervisor of mine went to the big guy and told him everything like we say in Arabic
ضربني وبكا سبقني واشتكا
Such a baby!! I didn’t even think about talking to anyone!! She is just making a big deal out of nothing! So what if I cried in front of u? is in a crime u ****!!!
So at 3 I went to the meeting room, suddenly 5 ppl appear ( this unit supervisor, the big head supervisor, the stupid women and 2 other ppl from the education department) and I'm thinking what in the world!!! Did I kill someone? Or did I hit someone? What is going on?
They sit down and the units' supervisor (a SHE and the stupid women's best friend) says:
"look, I know u don’t like this unit, and ur making all this trouble, whether u like it or not ur staying in this unit with this supervisor, don’t think u know everything and u don’t need guidance u don’t know anything yet, ur still a student and u have so much to learn, if u make any more problems we will have to send ur file back 2 the university and make u redo ur internship somewhere else!! So don’t do any more trouble for the department!!"
And she was pointing and looking at me like dirt!! So she continues
"….. And u should say al7mdella that u got this woman to be Ur supervisor she is the best in the unit and she knows the most, what is wrong with u!! It's such a privilege to HAVE A SAUDI SUPERVISOR not like us we had a hard time with non Saudi supervisors! "
Here is still can't understand the GREAT TROUBLE I caused? Really I had no idea?
They went on and on about how lucky I am 2 have a Saudi supervisor and that I am so blessed by Allah to have her, how can I be so not thankful!!
I just sat there looking at them and thinking GOD U PPL ARE TOTAL JERKS! And I didn’t open my mouth at all I just nodded and looked straight in the eyes of whoever was talking giving the look that said
"I am so not going to forget this and I am so going to pray to Allah that he revenges for me"
The next week they changed my supervisor and had me with a new one every 2 days, they thought I would breakdown and feel that I did something wrong and beg them to let me go back to that ***** but it was the best week of my life!! I was with 4 therapist and I learned a lot from them really, in one week I got so much than in the previous 2 weeks with her! But all ended good, and in the end I knew that all of them hate her, and she did the same childish movie with another therapist!!! I mean what is with u!! ok I'm the intern u can say whatever but a colleague!
That was the most recent story and the most recent person I hate
Back in school, well I won't talk about college coz there are too many stupid ppl, so let's skip to school:
The most person I hate so much is the ARABIC teacher I really; really hate her u guys know back in school the teachers always make the students bring posters and stuff 4 class so she said that she wants every lesson to be written on a poster and you'll get 5 marks for doing that and it’s a must coz the 5 marks are for class work, she gives me a piece of paper that was torn from a note book the top of a note book it was the size of half my palm, and she wrote in such small hand writing, with the numbers all over the place, like she would write ( 1) then X that and write over it (4) so I didn’t know the order of the sentences. Over that she sent it with a girl 2 my class and after class I went looking 4 her and couldn’t find her, so I tried my best to write in the correct order, my dad helped me and I wrote 2 posters in very big handwriting so that everyone can see.
Next day a girl comes to take the posters Arabic class was the first period for them, I gave it to her and was so proud of my dad's handwriting. 5 min she comes back and calls me
I go to the other class, enter, the teacher looks at me and says
"WHAT IS THIS!!!" I'm like … the poster?
So she says "this is all wrong cant u read, I wrote everything for u in the paper why did u write in this order!! We can't use this know! U are wasting my time!"
I got so angry not coz of me, but my dad wrote that and he really took his time doing it and u say this shit to me! So I replay as politely as possible " I looked for u yesterday 2 ask u but I didn’t find u so I …" in the middle of me talking she rips the poster in front of me and throws it in the garbage!! To the shock I didn’t know what to do!! Should I take it from the garbage and leave or wait for her to say something? My mind went blank!
She looks at me and says" go 2 ur class don’t worry I'll give u ur 5 marks don’t cry!"
I left so fast I forgot where my class was I went to the bathroom and cried my heart out, then I went back 2 class, all the girls were asking me and I just couldn’t open my mouth I was so devastated from what just happened, when Arabic period was in session the teacher said: "sorry u have to wait until I write the example on the board we had a poster but it didn’t do"
That *****!
Got u can really hate ppl from there stupid minds and stupid things they do, I mean I have never seen such rudeness and unjustness in my life!
I will stop here coz my heart can't take more bad memories
Let's think nice ppl… yeah children,, toys,,, candy … ahhhh nice! I want to eat I'm hungry!
C u
hello nice voxanians,
how u doin?
let cut to the end, MY WEDDING DRESS IS PERFICT!!! mashalla, 7mdella, i'm sooooooo happy!! its like a dream come true! this feeling is so weard?! i'm happy and worried, excited and cold, but i like the feeling? weard ay?
what ever, sorry i didnt take a picture coz the dress is soooo big mashalla and i dont have a manecan 2 put it on and take a picture its hanging from my bed ( my bed is the type that u slep up and ur desk is under the bed so i climb the stairs up) anyhow, its high so i can hang my dress and it wont reach the floor,
its SNOW WHITE in color , that is exactly what i dreamed of, the lower part of the dress is really big , my mother is conserned that i will not be able to fit in the car lol, the tail is 1 meter long and its 3 layers, its like ummmm
at the waist it starts to poof up, them it is gathered together where a group of flowers assend down about 2-3 cm all white, and poofs up again twice from the front and three times from the back, the third layer in the back is the tail of 1 meter.
the chest is if white flowers detailed in gold, at the top at the brest there is this cloth dantel like that is colected at the right side with a belt buckle of crystals, the crystals continue to the 7malat, silver crystals small in size. it is so big that when i tryed it on i took up the whole room!! ok my roon is'nt that big but its also not that small. its full of gliter and my room now is sooo glitery,lol
mashalla the dress is soo unique and beautiful in my eyes so i think that what is what counts the most!
now what is did was i brougth a bed sheet and filled it with purfume (m5l6 3oda) really nice, and i coved the dress with it so that it would smell nice not like cloth! and i brought bo5or and put it under the dress so that it smells nice inside out!
i'm going out 2day to get some coktail dresses, and hopefull i'll finish my junk b4 my wedding!! 15 days left ppl!
what u think of my dress?
I am confused and really cant chosse between the two...
i want to wear this eye contect lens
Autumn
from fresh look
it just gives you some sparkle to ur look, thats what i'm looking for, i dont want to change my eye color completely but i want something with a WOW factor, so this gives me what i want
then comes the makeup!
there is bronz
And the violet-purple look
everyone is telling me i should make it a BIT darker than i usually do my makeup, to give me a NEW LOOK i dont know, i want to look special but i dont want to FREAK my hubby with my makeup! so i though bronz is something more natural, and violet is different than what i usually do.
when i pick the makeup i can pick the flower bouquet.
ooooh yeah the nails~
like the glitter idea, and i'm a french fan!
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TODAY I'M GETTING MY WEDDING DRESS
this date should be pointed out in history
Nov.23.2008 , my wedding dress was finished
hopefully when i get it it'll be perfict!!
its scary but so exciting!
WOOOOOOOOOOW
MENA SAN~~~~
i just watch the special b4 the movie, it was aired one day b4 the movie , i remembered everything that happended in seson 1 and 2, such a great drama, really moving..
the sepcial was soo cooool i wish i was there!!!
u can download it from here
its eng. subed
really great
cant wait 4 the MOVIE to b uploaded on line!!
